thoughts-such is the beauty that the world secretly holds from the outsiders eye. tunnel vision is its nemesis, yet it exploits that idea so well the we all fall into it.
it'd be interesting to hear my life story from someone else.
i hardly update this to say it keeps a log of my life, but its here regardless.
[i tasted life &life was sweet]
Isolated
My favorite scent? I used to have a favorite, it was of a girl named Clare, but since then I haven't adopted another. Wait, I know it. Dr. Bronners magical peppermint soap, definitely.
And as a side note...You come off as boring? You have a stronger character, you can make decisions apart from the herd, you know...'the path less travelled by'?? How is that ever boring?
I've thoughts of buying a new camera from time to time, because I love taking pictures, and I actually just got a power cable for my Powerbook again (3rd one, thank you apple). But...I'm trying to re-learn how to write music. I've some kind of constipation when it comes to pushing out songs. Although...how am I not writing music right now?
Have you ever seen the movie Dreams by Akira Kurosawa? I love it, inspiration, the dude just made movies of his dreams.
Do you read much?
What type of cameras/ brands of cameras are you looking at? I'm assuming you're referring to D SLRs? (as opposed to analog). I say Nikon but I don't know you're preference? If you have a Cord near by, they have a "deal" where you get two lenses &the camera body &
&About the writing music: When I used to write (let alone play) I never could find the right words to use. It got rather frustrating, thus leading to the downfall of my writing. I fool around on the piano from time to time &I've not picked up my guitar in quite a while. It just sits in my room &looks pretty. My guitar teacher passed away this past September &for some reason, the motivation is half lost. Oh well. Hopefully it'll pick up soon. &I've also had to replace my power cord three times for my Macbook. . . Alas, the third time they were like, "Hey... you've only had this for 1.5 months... This one is free!" so... I saved some money on that &it was nice. But back to it, write about silly, miscellaneous things until you can come up with something that is striking to you. Just think of it as practice.
I've not seen that movie.. What is the movie about, exactly? Aside from the creators dreams..
&Sadly, I do not read very often. It's not that I don't want to or that I am illiterate, It's just that for some reason, the idea of sitting &reading a book strikes me the same as sitting &watching a movie, except with the movie, I'm able to focus on different, small &intricate details while focusing on the main point. When I do that while I read, I get distracted &often times forget what I just read. It's something that I'm telling myself that I need to get over &just start doing again, so hopefully I get over myself &do it. Do you read often? &If so, what genre?
lovelove-
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eliseee.
Love One Another
If I were to get a camera, I'd probably get another D-SLR, but nothing in the near future. I had a Rebel XT, which was sweet, lot's of options and learning possibilities. Although, I have a definite adoration of view cameras...and I think it would be sweet to try a pinhole camera, especially making one.
Oh yes, the frustration. I'm working on forming some kind of simplification process for excavating sounds and ideas from my head; I often find that unless I'm improvising, deciding what to say and how to say it is a bit much to do at once. Miscellaneous things-oh yes.
Deal. The movie is comprised of eight sections, each being a dream that this guy had, ranging from nuclear destruction to simple living to accepting your past, and just random, detailed occurences.
I've been reading quite a bit the last few months, and quite a bit of variation between styles of writing. For a while, I've been into different books that definitely have their ties with religion/spirituality/philosophy, I've been reading the Harry Potter books, which has been pretty much the only fiction reading, books about building log homes, I read Into The Wild like a week ago because I went through a similar experience, I love Tuesdays With Morrie, Kurt Cobains Journals, The Continuum Concept (which is more a way of life than a book).
Now saying this, I come off as a boring individual but I really don't think that I am? I'll drink on occasion, I've smoked a few times but mostly what I enjoy doing is talking to people &allowing each of us to pick apart the others brain with new &amazing information. Oh well. To each their own &I've often followed a different path.
But I want to stress that I don't look to myself in a "pity me" sort of attitude, although I'm sure that I came off that way. I regret that I chose this school, but at the same time I've grown in different ways that I wouldn't have necessarily grown in at other colleges or universities. So I have mixed emotions on my decisions.
There you have it! My experiences at The Ohio University rolled up into a few separate paragraphs. Hopefully it didn't bore you.
Anyway. It's close to Christmas. What are your plans for this joyous season? &To start the questions again, what is your favourite scent?
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eliseee.
Love One Another
To be me for five minutes, a lot of shit goes down, almost all of which I have no idea about, but in the midst of it, I'll manage to check out a few things, take notice of something. I'll most likely think about how I think too much, think about how that thinking came to be.
Definitely depends on the environment and the shit within me. Around certain people and places, I find tranquility, I find beauty, I find engagement and connection with the universes within them. Around certain situations, I get anxious, I second guess myself. I'm thinking about how the new age drugs are emotions, which are an incredible language, unfathomably intricate by my eyes. I'm thinking about how people are okay with Adarol or Dextrin (which are probably both spelled wrong), but not okay with crack or cocaine, which does the same thing to you, and people take things like Oxycontin, which is heroin. The difference between them? Pharmaceutical control, perhaps? Anyways, I don't understand all the games people play.
In 5 minutes, I am usually confused, enchained in my own ignorance and attention span, occasionally things fall into harmony within me. 5 minutes is an eternity. I'll possibly ponder seperation, division of things. Maybe I'll look at fish in a fish tank and see that they are flying like birds, in a different air. Maybe I'll think that I'm in a comfortable position to die in. Maybe I'll make a phone call, maybe I'll do a drug, which could really be any verb, just how it's done. I'll think about how I'm always travelling, I like to see new places, and lately I've been travelling to places in my mind not normally, physically possible, and experiencing things that are usually out of physical human perception. You never know. I like it that way.
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(Sorry, I've got a lot clouding my mind right now.)
Since we've not written back &forth for awhile, how have you been?
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eliseee.
Love One Another
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eliseee.
Love One Another
Unbearable? I hope not too much. Let those clouds disperse, let some sun in and tell me.....how are you?
i, elise marie, am in strange sorts. i recently found out (monday night) that my very good friend, kevin, who lives in chicago, was in a serious car accident &is in the hospital with multiple fractures to his upper vertebrae around his spine (luckily not paralyzed) &is in an induced coma to keep the brain from swelling. his friend, who was driving, died when she got to the hospital. :\ so that's been heavy on my mind because i was visiting him in two weeks so now i need to get in contact with his friends/ family to see if there's any way that i could visit him in the hospital.
with that, it was my finals week. i had 4 papers &3 finals... it was a load of fun. hahah. that's how i've been in a nutshell: a ball of stress, worry, anxiety, and in an odd way happy and relieved.
so now that i've waited so long to reply, how have you been?
withlove-
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eliseee.
Love One Another
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